Search me, O GOD, and know my heart.
    Test me and know my anxious thoughts.
    See if there is any offensive way in me,
    And lead me in the way everlasting.

     

    oOo

    Umiyak talaga ako kay God kagabi. As in super iyak. Poured out my heart. Lahat noong confusion, hinanakit… sinabi ko sa Kanya.

    The last time na naaalala ko na umiyak ako ng ganun is sa Baguio. High school.

    Umiyak ako sa Dad ko. Naaalala ko pa kung bakit at kung pano ko kwinento sa kanya yung mga nangyari. Andun kami sa kwarto ko. Humahagulgol talaga ako.

    Ewan ko kung bakit kay Daddy ko kwinento yun. Typically kay Mama ako nagkwekwento, pero that incident talagang kay Daddy ko binuhos yung sama ng loob ko.

    Magkaiba ang approach ni Mama at Papa sa akin when it comes to giving advice. Si Mama, hindi ka pa tapos sa kwento, may advice na agad. Si Daddy iba… makikinig lang siya. Yayakapin ako kung kailangan. Magtatanong kung may hindi malinaw sa kanya. Tapos ‘pag tapos na ako umiyak o kaya magkwento, tsaka lang siya magsasalita.

    Kung ano yung naramdaman ko kay Daddy noong time na iniyak ko sa kanya sa kwarto ko ung mga things that I’ve been going through, ganung-ganun yung naramdaman ko kagabi with God.

    Para akong batang nagsusumbong sa Daddy ko.

    Kasi that’s Who God is… my Heavenly Father.

    oOo

    By the end of the night and even early this morning, ang naging prayer ko is Psalm 139:23-24. Panghahawakan ko ‘yang verse na ‘yan. Until I level up!

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    Joanna Alonzo is a walking paradox. She is a beautiful, albeit messy, mixture of thought and emotion, expressed in the form of hopefully readable – and relatable – stories. She is a kingdom kid, who looks forward to being a writer and storyteller even when she reaches heaven. She is passionate about the unreached, about those who have yet to know the Love she found in the arms of the Almighty. She is intrigued by the world and its people, who day by day, continue to convince her that God is the greatest Storyteller of all.
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