This is Day 8 of 40 days of the allegorical devotional fiction, The Woman in the Wilderness.
The Glass Wall
His love endures forever… His love endures forever… His love endures forever… Is this not the echo of His song? Even in His glory and perfection, does He not know me? He created my inmost being. Does He not look upon me?
She faced the dead end once again, her heart racing – thumping so hard within her in a mix of excitement and fright. She sank to her knees, shut her eyes and cried out to Him. “Do You not know my heart? Have You not searched it? Do You not know my mind? Have You not seen its anxious thoughts? Surely You see that I fear You in Your holiness, purity, righteousness and splendor! And surely You know that the one thing that drives me in this journey, my only source of hope, is Your sweet, wondrous, unfailing love.”
She frowned when it was the slithering voice that she heard responding to her.
You are a fool. This journey will take you nowhere. You are wasting your time.
However, it was His promise that sank in to her wanting heart and restless soul.
The LORD delights in those Who fear Him, who put their hope in His unfailing love.
A supernatural calm enveloped her even as she sensed the spite in the hissing slither as it slunk away in its cowardice.
She opened her eyes, hoping to see Him, but disheartened to only see the dead end. She shut her eyes once again and whispered a silent plea:
Answer me quickly, LORD; my spirit fails. Do not hide Your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of Your unfailing love for I have put my trust in You. Show me the way I should go, for to You I entrust my life.
Before she could even finish the words, she felt the earth shake. Her eyes shot open. She was astonished by the sight that presented itself before her.
And all she could think of was the final verse in the final psalm.
Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Praise the LORD.
How silly she must have looked, her mouth agape, her eyes wide open as she knelt on the ground, witnessing the astonishing sight unfolding before her. The two ranges parted to reveal an opening, but that awesome sight alone wasn’t just what left her breathless. What she saw ahead of her was far more breath-taking.
A garden, a beautiful garden, was revealed to her, with flora and fauna, which at first glance, appeared to be rather common, but upon closer inspection, proved to be breath-taking and unique. She watched with standstill amazement as a moth flew by – its wings luminescent and glowing with brilliant colors.
She rose to her feet, her heart’s pace racing off to an excited, erratic beat. She wanted nothing other than to experience the wonders of the garden. She ran to it only to find herself in complete shock when just as she was about to step into the garden, she hit a glass wall.
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23-24 (NIV)
the Lord delights in those who fear Him,
who put their hope in His unfailing love.
Psalm 147:11 (NIV)
Answer me quickly, Lord;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit.
8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I entrust my life.
Psalm 143:7-8 (NIV)
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord.
Psalm 150:6 (NIV)
Have you ever been there? Where you feel like you’ve been keeping the faith, you’ve been trusting, you’ve been believing in Him and holding on to His Word and promises with everything that you’ve got? And yet you keep hitting one wall after another? You get past one dead end only to see another one before you?
It feels like we’re going from obstacle to obstacle in a never-ending obstacle course. If we step back though, and make a fair assessment of the situation, we’ve also been going from encounter to encounter. Our hearts are strengthened. We are not the same way we were before.
Our heart’s response becomes more of praise rather than complaint, trust rather than doubt. And this is something He delights in.
If we look back to when we first started the journey, we knew it wouldn’t be easy. We were excited, and we might have felt better then than we do now facing yet another obstacle. But we’ve gone this far in our walk with the Lord.
And He has been faithful.
There’ve been a lot of obstacles and there’ll be more along the way. What’s your heart’s response? Is it of murmuring or of praise? For as long as we have breath, He will deserve our praise. No matter what our circumstances are, may we find it in us to still praise Him.