This is Day 9 of 40 days of the allegorical devotional fiction, The Woman in the Wilderness.
The Secret Door
She stared at the glass wall that stood between her and the wondrous garden ahead. Her face contorted into a mix of disappointment and confusion. What’s going on? This dead end is even worse than the first. It appears to be nothing but a cruel taunt, for I am shown something I long to be a part of, only for it to be revealed as something completely out of my reach just when I want it the most. I don’t understand.
A chill traveled from the soles of her feet to the nape of her neck as she heard an audible hiss.
Did you really think it would be that easy?
She furrowed her brows in deep thought, and right before her anxiety could get the best of her, a smile lit up her face and her eyes brightened with delight.
Yes I do! I think it would be that easy to go on this next step of my journey! It’s all about faith, is it not? His assurances flooded her mind:
“Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness for they will be filled.”
“Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon and you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”
A deep yearning overpowered her fears as her eyes began to glaze over with a hope not her own. All I ask is that I might be with Him – not riches, not fame, not anything else other than to know Him as He knows me. To touch Him… to see Him… to hear Him… to be with Him. Why on earth would He deny me that?
She whipped her head toward the direction from where the slithering voice came from. She didn’t see the sly creature taunting her, but she knew it was there and she knew that in this particular battle of wills, she just came out the victor. She knew the words He had spoken to her and she would hold on to them, though their fulfillment seemed impossible and out of reach.
She stared at the glass wall before her as sudden understanding consumed her mind and soul.
Some things aren’t as they seem. Perhaps what appears to be a wall is actually a door.
Mustering all the faith in Him that she had – faith given her by He Who is Faithful – she knocked on the glass wall.
And true to His Word, it opened.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Matthew 5:6 (NIV)
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
Matthew 7:7-8 (NIV)
I can’t count the number of times where I’ve felt this way, like He’s showing something beautiful, something I want, only to find that it’s something I can’t have. At least for now. It may be an object, an ambition, a desire that seems so within reach, and yet, it eludes me.
Have you ever experienced that in your walk with Him?
These are moments when I try to remember that He is not a cruel God, prone to taunt us and lead us on for no purpose. That all His ways with us are intentional and has love at its very core.
Still, how do we respond when it feels like something we want so much has been kept from us? Do we blame Him?
These are moments when we have to assess what we are truly after in this journey. Is it really Him? Or is it what we think we stand to gain should we find Him? Can we be as the woman in the wilderness who can honestly say that it is God we are after? Not fame? Not wealth? Not anything else other than to know Him as He knows us?
The trials in our life are usually His signposts – one that point to Him. They are our detours from the way we think we want our life to go to the way He planned for us, the way that we prayed for when we asked for His will to be done in our lives.
It is at these times when our hearts and souls are set on Him that it’s best to ask, to seek, to knock. Because if is Him we are asking for, then He will surely open the door that leads to Him. Start knocking.