She wanted to stop walking around angry and bitter, feeling condemned by people who were just as weak and in need of grace as she was.
She had to embrace the reality that life is unfair, that not everyone obeys and chooses the path of love, that life is going to knock the wind out of you and kick you while you’re down.
But that was and will never be a good reason not to get up.
She had to realize that bitterness and unforgiveness were akin to stabbing herself over and over and over again in hopes of killing those who wanted her dead. It was giving them power they weren’t entitled to over her life.
Thus, she had to just let it go, to love herself again because she is loved. Deeply. And hopefully learn and live out what Christ meant when He said “love your enemies”.
At some point in your life, I’m sure you’ve been wounded. Perhaps by someone who is close to you, someone you love. Personally, majority of my hurts as a person came from my church and the people there. I know how ugly relationships within the church can get. And it’s hard to see that, because it’s not how Christians are supposed to be like. It’s certainly not the church Jesus envisioned in His Sermon of the Mount.
For a long time, I was jaded against Christianity and my home church. I’ve been going through a long and painful healing process that is teaching me to love again. To embrace my sisters and brothers in Christ – in all their weaknesses, in their brokenness, knowing that I was embraced by my Savior in mine.
I love the church, not because it’s perfect. Not because of its beautiful stained glass windows and majestic facades. I love it, because He does. I love it, because we’re a community – all learning. All in different stages of healing. All guided by the Hand that holds the world.
Have you been hurt by people from church? By Christians? Do share your story.