My mind is in serious overdrive.

    Ever since I got the “go!” from my parents to go back to Baguio for good, my mind has whirled with musing after musing of what I want to do. It’s like I’ve been caged in this urban lifestyle and the thought of going back home is somehow my idea of freedom. For the first time in a long time, it feels like I could make anything happen. I’m not stuck in the corporate bubble living the routine that I’ve fallen into over the past 4 years.

    And yet, somewhere in my mind’s overdriven chaos, is the sheer awareness that if I’m to survive the next few months, I need to hear from Him more than anything.

    January 13 will be my last day at work. I can only wish Sandstone and my teammates the best. The company that I’ve worked for over the past 2 and a half years will be in my prayers and I do pray that the company prospers even more so than it is doing now.

    January 14… I’ll be moving back home. I’ll spend a week there until my 25th birthday and then I plan to pack up my bags again (if I’ve already unpacked them) to go on a 40-day personal retreat in our church at Sinipsip, Buguias, Benguet.

    Mostly, that’s what I’m excited about, because that 40-day retreat is something that I am certain is a direction from the Lord. My heart is expectant that I will encounter Him there during that period of prayer and fasting. And hopefully, it will be a welcome calm in the midst of the chaos that my soul has been going through over the past months.

    I really do need to hear from Him. And I’ve reached the point of desperation.

    So I said, “Oh that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest.
    Indeed, I would wander off, and remain in the wilderness. Selah.
    I would hasten my escape from the windy storm and tempest.”
    Psalm 55:6-8

    Sinipsip probably won’t count as a wilderness, but it’s as wilderness as wilderness gets for a Facebook-oriented, too-techie-to-function, media-crazed city girl like me. I am holding on to one of the constant messages that I’ve been receiving from Him over the past months:

    Therefore, I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her
    Hosea 2:14

    My heart is full of expectation… hoping, praying, longing… that I will encounter Him there and once I do, His work of transformation will continue in me and through me.

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    Joanna Alonzo

    Author/Founder at Almond Tree Publications
    Joanna Alonzo is a walking paradox. She is a beautiful, albeit messy, mixture of thought and emotion, expressed in the form of hopefully readable – and relatable – stories. She is a kingdom kid, who looks forward to being a writer and storyteller even when she reaches heaven. She is passionate about the unreached, about those who have yet to know the Love she found in the arms of the Almighty. She is intrigued by the world and its people, who day by day, continue to convince her that God is the greatest Storyteller of all.
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