Never say in your heart what you will or will not do until God reveals His way to you.
As long as that way is hidden, it is clear that there is no need for action & that He will hold Himself accountable for all the results of keeping you exactly where you are.
Wherever God’s finger points, His hand will clear a way…
The blurb above is a text message from my dear, sweet sister in Christ, Ate Aires. To that message, I say… Waaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
For those who know me well, I assume that they are quite aware of my desire to become a full-fledged writer. I assume that because that’s what I’ve been ranting about for the past few months ever since I got involved with Ako Ay Pilipino (Book now available for P500!!). I don’t want to leave this earth without having finished writing a novel. I want to be a journalist (although I’ll most likely end up a dead one).
When good friends, Glenn and Pinky, asked me what I wanted to write. My answer was simple: “I want to write about God. I want to write something that will matter in eternity. I want to write something that means something to someone… even if that someone is just me.”
It was Pinky who made me aware of the power of writing when she told me that what you write – once read – cannot be erased. And it’s true. That is why I want what I write to matter.
My chat with Bro. Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj:
“What do you do?” he asked me.
“I’m a software developer,” I told him.
“So what are you writing now?”
I was quite stunned with the question, so, like a fool, I replied, “Software.”
He smiled graciously (probably the same way God smiles at him when he asks something silly). “Anything?”
Still being a fool, I replied, “Uhm… Smalltalk.” (That’s the programming language I’m currently using.)
Before anything else was said, he was pulled by the other people at the Mactan Airport to take pictures.
Voila! If anything, the conversation with him assured me that God is going to use my writing. But as to how or when or when or when… I don’t know. But really… when?
When Ate Lorna Joannes brought up my going full-time for Ako Ay Pilipino as a writer, I have to tell you… my heart soared with anticipation.
After praying about it and seeking my parents’ counsel, it was unanimously determined that it wasn’t time for me to pursue my dreams of being a writer. To be quite honest, I’m still disappointed. It feels like I’m setting aside my personal ambition for what I believe the Lord wants me to do, and yet… I’m not quite sure what it is He wants me to do right now.
This is why the text message from Ate Aires spoke volumes to me.
I am now left to continue to do what I’m doing until further notice. And no… that’s not to blog (which I’ve been doing a lot).
Thus, here I am again… waiting. Anticipating. Wondering. Satisfied knowing that He is in control.
– Superchick –